it's great only at the middle of the day trip begun from the mid day.

What's live? I've tried and tried to write a blog but lazy, now it's a feeling that comes to my mind that i need to write a blog and writes out what i feel right now..and it's about me, it's about my lives.

Today, it's a bad day for me and my dear. Actually, it's a wonderful day for us at the middle of the day but it turned to be a horrible day when the day turn dark. My mood and everything has ruined. Scares me, frighten, trauma, i feel very upset guilty and humiliated, and it's a dilemma again it's lives that someone could have been past through with this experience. I cried and it's non-stop. My dear hug me and tried to calm me, we laugh a little but still i feel guilty with it. So many things goes through my mind. “what should i do if it's really happen on us?” , what will be my future? and what will my deeds leads me to what kind of future? what will my family feels and think about me if they know what i have done?.

As what i thought with what they did just now was just like the other kopi o police. The ton they speak were just they same like the other days. They are so shit cos they watched all the show and then talk shit. At the end, they still collect kopi o from their prey. This is because we are quite "suai" means "bad luck" for today. I wonder, is it a karma? it's a lesson from god to warn me with what i have done?

I feel so sorry to my dear, and i feel guilty cost of not listening to him. And i just wanna say " I so sorry :( I so sorry :( I so sorry :( I so sorry :( I so sorry :( I so sorry :( I so sorry :( I so sorry :( I so sorry :( I so sorry :( I so sorry :( I so sorry :( I so sorry :( I so sorry :( I so sorry :( I so sorry :( I so sorry :( I so sorry :( I so sorry :( I so sorry :( I so sorry :( I so sorry :( I so sorry :( I so sorry :( I so sorry :( I so sorry :( I so sorry :( I so sorry :( I so sorry :( I so sorry :( I so sorry :( I so sorry :( I so sorry :( I so sorry :( I so sorry :( I so sorry :( I so sorry :( I so sorry :( I so sorry :( I so sorry :( I so sorry :( I so sorry :( I so sorry :( I so sorry :( I so sorry :( I so sorry :( I so sorry :( I so sorry :( I so sorry :( I so sorry :( I so sorry :( I so sorry :( I so sorry :( I so sorry :( ... infinity " and this lesson cost me RM100.